Do you know why you are here, on Mother Earth - what your life purpose is? Are you happy with life? Do you feel that you have found your passion in life? Are you living your soul mission? Do you feel something is missing?

​So many questions...!

When I was younger, I always felt like I didn't belong, didn't fit in. I used to have a  feeling that there was something else out there, that life really wasn't just what I was living...

Perhaps you can relate..?

It is sometimes easier to hide away than face the truth.

It began when I was working as cabin crew. During break-times on the tiring long haul flights, feeling tired and exhausted... that was when I started seeing my first guide. In hindsight the reason it happened during the flights was because I was so tired I had no energy to put up any resistance and so my guide was able to come through easily. 

Well, I have to say at the beginning, it was very unnerving, very strange and hard to comprehend what was going on. I saw images of my guide - I used to only see his eyes to begin with, lots of wrinkles around them, a very strong, wise and powerful Native American, who looked angry all the time! Then I was able to see his face. The images were clearer than in 'real life' it's hard to explain how real it was. 
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After I left the airline, I joined a meditation class in South London. A perfect location - very close to where my new job was and where I lived - meant to be.

​The highly intuitive teacher gave me direction and introduced me to meditation and to connect with my guides. She put me on the path of being a healer, which I now know is part of my life purpose - to provide a service of healing to others.
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The way I found these meditation classes was unusual - a tiny advert in the local newspaper, with only a few words 'Meditation - for relaxation and guidance, South London, Wednesdays 7pm, contact tel no xxxxx'. The ad could have easily been missed, it was so tiny and had no contact name or clear location. Despite the lack of information, I was instantly drawn to the class - it was absolutely everything I needed at that time.

Things come to us when we need them - 'our prayers are always answered' (not always how we expect them to be answered).
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I started my healing path by first learning Reiki, and then becoming a Light Worker, connecting to other guides. I learned about Shamanism and Soul Retrieval which really propelled me forwards and it continues.​..

I wanted to help others who may have been experiencing what I did, so I set up weekly meditation sessions and added the shamanic drumming element to the mix. The brain connects to and follows continuous rhythmic patterns of the drum. When your brain does this, it eases off from all the mind chatter and helps the body to enter a deep state of relaxation. This moment is when you can access your subconscious  and make positive and powerful changes in your life.
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I am now being pulled into creating retreats and therefore the weekly classes will be scheduled as part of weekend workshops. 

.....and there was I thinking that in my old age, I can start to relax...

It is so important to be present and aware: notice the signs and messages, accept them, adjust your life and the way you think and continue to be in the flow.

I had some messages that I should have listened to and didn't. I wanted to share my recent experiences with you.

Early last year I decided I wanted to learn yoga, primarily to help with my neck and back pain and also to get super-fit.

In April 2018 I had an opportunity to book a place on a 4-week intensive teacher training Vinyasa yoga course in Costa Rica starting in November 2018.

All the pre-course work arrived, I bought all the books and got started. I practiced daily, I did lots of reading, studying, researching, completing assignments, writing essays, meditating...

​I was really enjoying it but looking back, I had put a lot of pressure on myself and I was ignoring the little niggle at the back of my mind that continually questioned my decision.

I found it hard to practice all the poses due to my neck and back issues, I couldn't turn my head properly to the sides, bend back very far, sit on the floor for long, had sharp twinges in my lower back. However, I still carried on, trying to be gentle and going only as far as I was comfortable, holding an inner intention that the more I practiced the easier it would become and my back would surrender into complete submission and fully recover. I have always enjoyed yoga.

So I continued with the yoga study, I also continued with running my business - Love 2 Meditate (weekly group meditations in Fleet and Basingstoke, one-to-one sessions, weekend workshops) and I continued to work three days a week as a Business Support Manager. 

Variety in my life was good, but my back wasn't improving, in fact I started to increase my oestopathy appointments, tried acupuncture and cupping, booked deep tissue massages, etc. The yoga practice was no longer regular, I was only able to do it when my body was able to cope.

I am one of those people who will always try their hardest to do what they say they will do, no matter what - yes, it may sound stubborn and yes sometimes I am - however the main point is that I live with high integrity.

A few weeks before I was to leave for the yoga course, I was involved in a car accident. Driving home from work, a car plunged into the back of my car. Luckily, I only had whiplash.

Not at any point did I feel angry or resentful, in fact, after I recovered from the initial shock - my reaction was to check how the person behind me was. His car was written off - his windscreen smashed from the deployed airbag. Fortunately, he was ok.

I remember getting a message at the point of impact 'breathe.... are you listening?'.

After a few days, I stepped back.

I meditated... I questioned... I listened...

What is this accident telling me?
What is it that I need to change?
Why has the accident caused further injury to my neck and back?
What does it mean when the neck and back are in pain?
What is the Universe and my body trying to tell me?

​Neck pain is associated to being stubborn, inflexible, creating pressure, narrow mindedness, indecisiveness,
Back pain is associated to feeling a lack of support (emotional, financial...), carrying burdens, feeling helpless, guilt, feeling unloved, not trusting life, causing pressure.

I needed to reduce the pressure in my life, understand the support I have, stop resisting, let go and trust that all will be ok.

​I started to work on positive affirmations. I acknowledged and appreciated the great things I already have in my life - the amazing support and love I have always received from my friends and family. I am truly blessed.

I decided to withdraw from the yoga course. Once I had made that decision, I felt a slight relief from the pain. It was the right decision.

Recently however, I am again feeling an increase of pain.

Breathe... I am listening...

I received a further confirmation of what I needed to do when recently a very caring, honest and loving friend called me out of the blue to say that he sensed something wasn't quite right in my life. He sensed that I needed to change something.

This time I am acting on the messages while they are still at a suble level.

I have decided to stop the weekly evening group sessions. I want to have time to relax, have fun, see friends, potter about and complete little jobs that get pushed to one side. I want to build on my knowledge and expand my awareness. I want to be clear and balanced so I can continue my soul work.

In the meantime and I hope you will be pleased to hear, I will continue to offer private sessions and weekend workshops.

Who knows what the future brings. To use the good old phrase - new doors are opening as others are closing.

Thank you to all of you who have attended and supported the weekly sessions and thank you for reading my blog.

I feel lighter.

​“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor to worry about the future, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.”
Buddha